I had the day off work today and I went to the Doctor’s to discuss being referred to the Mental Health service here to be checked for Borderline Personality Disorder.
We had a lovely chat, but my Doctor was very keen to stress that diagnosis can take years, it can totally depend on who sees me, when they see me, and how I’m feeling that day. She said it could be nothing. She said they might reject her referral not because they don’t believe me but because they won’t have the resources to investigate any more claims.
She also said as I can hold down relationships and a job they might not offer me any support.
But I have to do something.
More practical help my Doctor gave me was she passed me on a reference sheet for all the mental health services in my city and a list of different low cost/free counselling services.
After a bit of investigation I found a trainee but approved counsellor who does evening appointments and next Monday I will be going along to a (free!) consultation to see if it will be a good fit.
Speaking to my Doctor the best thing for me would be both counselling and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, but I can barely afford counselling, let alone both.
I have rejigged the budget and if I cut down on my debt repayments, and, I don’t know, don’t have a social life, I should just be able to cover it.
I put today to good use and sent off my We Buy Book parcels, so hopefully I will have some money in my account by the end of the week.
I am going to try to make an additional £75 this month as a little challenge I am doing through the Money Saving Expert website (please do check it and the forum in particular out, it really doesn’t matter if you live outside of the UK, I’ve seen people all over the world use it and it has been a life saver for me).
My Pinecone Survey earnings are up to £12. So I may cash in a £10 Amazon voucher so that I can add it to my now £20 in Shop and Scan Amazon voucher earnings so that I can buy my Dad his Father’s Day Present, a very close University friend her birthday present and maybe some aluminium free deodorant.
I may do another sweep of the Book Shelves to see if any more pennies can be made (yes, I capitalised the words Book and Shelves, my book shelves are worthy of the distinction, or at least they were before they were decimated this weekend).
All in all it has been an Up/Down day. I got in a bit of a strop earlier and took it out on the boy.
I am going to binge watch Shop Well For Less on BBC Iplayer and Save Money Good Food on the ITV player this evening. I am also going to hoover the living room carpet as the boy has rather grossly cut his toe nails in here.
I have done over 1 hours walking today, so I am slowly introducing exercise back into my life, but to be honest I kinda feel bad for counting walking as since I don’t drive and I am poor walking is pretty much my only way of getting anywhere. I don’t really have a choice.
I must remind myself to be grateful for things. I’m sure it hasn’t escaped you what happened in London on Saturday night. My little brother lives in London. He is fine. I am lucky, but so many recently haven’t been.
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